Up

How often do you cast your gaze upward at the sky? That bright, blue vastness that is equally inky black in its own time, dotted with tiny, shining beacons of intrigue. From time to time, I find myself staring up into the black nothingness that isn't really nothing at all. It's a wonderful, huge, peaceful place where anything can happen when you just stare. I can be alone to my whirlwind of thoughts, even silence them for a rare moment, when I let the nothingness consume me. Those are some of my favourite moments.

Thank you

I love the people close to me. My friends are wonderful and I couldn't wish for better. They know me inside out, as do I them. My family, although it isn't a smooth ride, are always there and I love them all. My sister, I could not live without and to say I love her to pieces is an understatement!

I am lucky to have the people I do, and though I know I don't always see that or appreciate them as much as I should, I know they love me and I hope they know that I also love them.

Take a moment to step back and appreciate the people you have in your life. They are all special in different ways and we often fail to  take the time to stop and thank them.

Lost

I love the feeling of coming back to reality after being completely lost in my own thoughts. The feeling of not knowing how much time has passed, being at ease and carefree. I'm am just myself, alone in my thoughts and unaware of the world passing by around me.

It is a wonderful feeling.

Outsider

I see the same group of people every day. Everyone gets on, yet I constantly feel like I have to take it upon myself to make sure I get included in things. How well do I really know these people? I thought I liked them, but now I'm seeing things I didn't before and somehow, I'm not quite so sure anymore.

I thought you were so knowledgeable, but your manner sometimes makes me wonder.
Do you even see me? I often wonder if you only do when you choose to.
I was never sure about you, and sometimes I think I do like you after all. But you seem to live in your own little world a lot of the time. I think the others see it too.
You seem to get everything you want, you seem to think you are such a wise guy, you are too carefree to be safe and you are just. So. Rude. I could go on, but I won't.
You are one of the sweetest, funniest people there, but you come out with words so quickly and it makes me uneasy.
I thought we had a lot in common, but you come out with these things, and say them like you know it all, and more often than not I don't actually agree with you. And the worst part is, I'm letting that cloud my own judgement and opinion on things.

I feel like you're all putting me down. The worst part is, I don't think any of you even realise though I tried telling you. I may, statistically, be the baby, but you don't need to put me at the bottom of the pecking order. I am far more mentally grown up than some of you will ever be, yet in all this time I know you will never see that. If we aren't careful, I am going to snap with you very, very soon.

Look up

A different view

Through my film camera...

Alone in my thoughts

I'm in too deep and I can't find my way back out. I don't know what to do with myself, my thoughts are slowly eating me up from the inside. Nothing to do, yet the world is mine to conquer. Nothing to achieve, yet everything to lose.

I need a knight in shining armour but I think I'm going to be waiting a long time.