A different view

Through my film camera...

Alone in my thoughts

I'm in too deep and I can't find my way back out. I don't know what to do with myself, my thoughts are slowly eating me up from the inside. Nothing to do, yet the world is mine to conquer. Nothing to achieve, yet everything to lose.

I need a knight in shining armour but I think I'm going to be waiting a long time.

Nobody knows (poem)

A deep sigh.

No one sees it,

And nobody knows why.

I am stuck in this fortress of solitude,

But did I build these walls?

They are built so high,

Will anyone ever hear my calls?

A deep sigh,

Nobody knows why.

I know where I want to be,

But my fortress is holding me.

I should be happy -

Not so many have what I see.

A deep sigh,

Nobody knows why.

The rope is dangling before me,

But I cannot reach it.

I do not have the strength to pull myself free,

I feel I'll remain here for all eternity.

A deep sigh,

Nobody knows why.

A teardrop or three.

But it feels like a flood,

To no one but me.

Nobody knows why.

Original poem by Corrie King

(Please do not use without permission)

Stuck in a ditch

I find myself with empty days on my hands to fill. I know exactly what I want to be doing, but although I can see the rope dangling there to help me, it's just out of my reach. It is so very close, yet so painfully far away that it might as well not be there at all. I need to be doing that thing I feel so passionate about, that thing that I can't live without - that thing that feeds my soul. If I can't grab hold of that rope soon, I feel like the pain of it will eat me up in one single bite.

I'm not sure how long it will take me to clamber my way out of this ditch, or how many cuts and bruises it will take. But the despair is rooted firmly until then.